A Different Resolution

Jan 10, 2018

by Sarah Estes, PCA Board Member

Every year at the end of December I purchase a new notebook. When I was younger I did this with the intention to keep a journal filled with interesting things I saw or did or heard, things going on in the world that I felt bared remembering. Since my son came along my intentions have changed. Now I purchase the notebook intending to grace its pages with the amazing and beautiful new things he and my sweet daughter do daily, in case my memory fails me and I lose all those precious innocent words and actions.

Notebooks fill bookshelves and drawers all over my home.  A few pages written in tired mommy handwriting after long days of working and playing.  So many memories have never made it into those journals and every time I see them I feel a pang of guilt.   Why don’t I just sit down and write in my journals when the spirit moves me?  Why do I feel like I’ve let myself down by not sticking to my New Year’s Resolution?    

It’s not a new concept.  A resolution is defined as a firm decision to do or not to do something.  Resolutions take dedication, determination, tenacity.  They aren’t easy.  If they were, I would have written passages for January 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8.  Instead, the pages are blank.  I’m five days behind and now it feels like a daunting task.  So, I go where I usually go when things become overwhelming…

In Philippians, Chapter 3, Paul writes that everything that was once important to him, every worldly measure of a man is now rubbish compared to knowing Christ.  Losing everything would not hurt him because he has God, who redeems him, who gives him eternal life and makes him whole.  Verses 13 and 14 really speak to me and my New Year’s situation, “13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” 

Paul sure knows how to make my New Year’s resolution seem trite.  Not to say that my aspirations are unimportant, but to remind me that the significance I place on them is nowhere near as important as constantly striving to improve my relationship with God.  After all, that is easy – I find God in the people I visit in prison and in the faces of the children with whom I work.  God is around every corner and my relationship with God only becomes stronger when I share love.  

 



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